Why do we feel old in our 20s?

Honestly, I was little surprised when I first searched on the internet and I wasn't the only one who felt old in his/her 20s. I will be turning 25 next month and for the last few weeks I have been feeling sad about it. Birthdays are not exciting anymore.

However, I don't feel as bad as earlier about getting old. I will share my experience how it all started and how it came to an end.

I started feeling too old at the age of 18 or 19. Earlier I lived a carefree life playing video games, having fun with few friends I had but most of my time consumed by playing video games. All the successful people I used to see were way older than me and I thought I had all the time in the world to make up my lost time be successful. But one day I switch on the TV and see a guy only 2 years older than me has signed for Barcelona, then on other day another kid 3 years older than me has won gold medal in Olympics and a teenage girl one year older than me sells her album and breaks all the box office. It felt weird at first like where did all my time go and why am I still playing video games and other people are winning gold medals in Olympics? Few years down the line I see people as old as me or younger than are already at the top of the world. I felt I wasted a lot of time in my life and felt too old to start anything even though I was only 21. I was sad and hated myself for not being where I wanted to be.

Now, I don't feel old anymore because I have discovered new challenges in my life and I want to accomplish them. It's no longer about comparing myself to other people but it's only about me. I now understand how much persistence, hard work and dedication it needs to achieve success and why only few people make it. Those young athletes, singers and professionals have only made it to the top after years of practice and dedication. My journey to success will be the same, adding little value to my life every day to make my dream into reality.

Academic Struggle

Life as an international student in USA has not been easy for me. So far in my 1st year in Grad school I got A, B-, B, A, B-, C so far. This is not good by any means as I am falling short on competing with other students. If I don't do well in my next year then I will have to pack my bags and return to India which I wasn't planning for.
 I want to return to my homeland but not for sometime. Lifestyle in US is great and better than in India in my opinion. People work very hard here but at the same time they have ample opportunities to make up for it. Currently, I am here in India and I couldn't me more happy to meet my parents again. Looking at them tells me how much do they care about me and what an asshole I have been to them. Last night, I wished someone shot me and kill me and put my burden out of parent's shoulders. Guess it was pure frustration because of my academic performance. Hard work is the only option I have right now to make up the mess I have created.

Living for the first time away from family

So I finally came to USA after a tiring 34 hours journey. Still suffering from jet lag and homesickness but I feel gratitude for a friend of mine who has been very helpful to me. I expect myself to grow as a better person during my stay here in US and then return to my family. So far, I found USA to be a very good place with so many things which I am not familiar with. The technology here, roads, cars, internet are simply fantastic. I have a feeling that it is going to be fun in next 2 years.

Turning 23

Tomorrow I will turn 23. It is just a couple of hours away from now. So far my 20s have been quite decent but still not a settled career. When you look at other people's lives such as that of Steve Jobs or some other personalities, this age and time defined what they will be achieving in the future and it doesn't looks the same for me. Still giving my 100% shot at life and hope that everything will settle down.

Another confusion in uncertain life

Confusion never stops. Couple of months earlier I have applied for University of South Florida along with many universities in USA as a foreign student from India who have now granted me admission to their program. Before filing the application I thought it will be a good decision to go to US but after what I have heard about their lives, I had to reconsider my decision to even going to US. Job prospect in US is not good for foreign student and it is advised that to build contacts and expand your network once I get over there which I am very weak at. It is a hard decision to be honest but I will wait and re-asses all my options before opting to take such a huge decision.
Last but not the least, it's wonderful to meet my grandmother again. She is looking older than ever and her skin has become more dry. It's a shame she is growing old and approaching the last stages of her life. It wouldn't be the same without her.

Frustration of seating at home

So I left my job after only 7 months and my current status is unemployed. Honestly, I think I made a mistake by leaving the job because I did not had another job at the other end. If you want to quit your work then make sure you have better opportunity and a job in hand when you leave.
These days I am preparing for exams as in State Bank of India, India Engineering Services, Graduate Aptitude Test in Engineering. So overall it is very frustrating and sadness of seating at home and the thought of wasting the time of your youth doing absolutely nothing.
Seriously, someone give me a 9 to 5 job.

Hi

Hey guys,
I have decided to quit my job after 7 months. It was more of a forced to resign issue rather than quitting it by myself. Being in R&D department for 6 months, factory manager decided to put me as a machine operator because he thinks I was just doing time pass in R&D(Research and Development). Honestly, I am thankful to him to make my decision easier to quit my job. There was no future in the industry either since people who  are working there for 10-12 years have very low wages. Secondly, there is no motivation in doing service for a private industry so I have decided to not to do any service for any private company in future.
I am still searching for what I like to do and I haven't found anything from which I can make something for living. I mean, I like gaming, music, facebook but those are not helpful. There is another option of teaching but the more I think about it, more I feel like not doing it. Remember when we were kids and how we used to harass our teachers? That's what I don't like about teaching.
My another option is opening up my own business. But that would be like what I am supposed to do? Ok now I know what to do but how do I do it? Its a very complicated book to understand. Perhaps at least I will retain my moral to do something special in the future.